Sometimes you have to create yourself, and make your goals happen.
Confidence is what will get you your dreams. Lead your there, and give you a reason to pursue. Effort and persistance will make it happen sooner. An important part of my pursuit is writing about them, and keeping a journal, - I don’t do it to keep order in my life, I do it so that in the future I can look back and say to myself “ Oh god!” or “ Oh wow!" and.. give myself a moment of peace and remembering a moment I experience throughout my pursuits. Striving and creating and making it happen is possible and usually if something is a challenge it is always worth it to try.